Questions

Just a warning, to anyone close to me who may read this, I may be abrasive, off base, rude, ignorant (not knowing), or dead on dancing on the truth. In the same line of thinking, remember these are only questions that are in my head...

• Are my friends really friends? Or do they just play the role with plots and hidden agendas?
• Why is it that there is a great guy, that's interested in me for me, and I'm not interested in him?
• Is it fear that makes me distance myself? Is it my vision of a projected negative future hinders me from getting involved with him?
• Why is it that when you don't want someone, you don't want anyone else to have him either?
  
• Why do I want to get involved with a man that lives in Florida while I live in New Jersey?
• What purpose would I have for dating a 42 year old?
• How can a man make me smile from just saying hello?
• Why does talking to Steven remind me of when Shawn and I first began talking?
  
• Why do I keep relating and comparing guys to Shawn?
• Is it because Shawn was my first love, that I keep trying to mimic it?
• I keep telling myself that I am over Shawn, but am I lying to myself?
• Why is it important to me what people think about the person I'm dating?
• Why do I allow people's comments and concerns bother and move me to action?
• Why do I continue to drink if I tend to act a fool, lose memory, and wake up groggy the next morning?
• Why do my friends ask me to do things for them, but the only thing I ask of them I can't even get a response from?
• Do my actions cloud my influence on others?
  
• Why do I allow myself to be hurt time and time again?
• Why am I still writing these dag on questions?