So everyone must be wondering what I meant by my last post. So, let me give you just a bit of an update. A couple of weeks ago, I fell sick with the flu. I didn't know I had the flu, just thought I was sick with common cold or allergy symptoms. I bought the Tylenol Cold & Flu and tried to wing it to recovery. I didn't quite make it. I landed in the ER for like 6 hours laying in the bed with ice on my arms trying to get my temperature to drop. It was creeping close to 105 and kept rising from registration until the time I sat on the ER bed. They medicated me and waited till I cooled down. They gave me scripts and I was on my way to recovery, finally! the day before the ER visit, I experienced another breakup. There wasn't a spark or fuzzy feeling generating from me towards him. The bad part is he fell for me and I didn't fall for him. I needed to be honest to do this now instead of lead him on for months and months maybe even years pretending to have something that's not there. So, we broke up. Now, on to the video...
The way Keke pictured her interaction with Avant was sensual and seductive. They way that Avant pictured being with Keke was romantic and sexy. They used the words picture, meaning imagining or envisioning. You know when you're not in someone's presence and all you can do is think about them? Think on what you want to do to them, with them, for them? When you finally get together it's like magic at every moment. When you part ways, as soon as you turn your back, you miss them, longing to see them again. When I listen to this song, this is what comes to mind. This is what I think Keke and Avant portray with their words.
Thinking of that, I thought Dre was a cool guy. He has plenty to offer someone. He's a great catch even! I had him but wondered everyday why when we were together I felt like I was chillin with one of the boys. I liked him and what he had, but there were no feelings of love. When that infatuation stage was over with all I felt was friendship. Who has a great guy but can't fall for him. I realized that everyone isn't for you and I'm not for everyone! I'm happy that I didn't lead him on for any longer fooling both of ourselves.
Like anyone else, I want that "Nothing in this World" feeling with someone. I'm not looking for it any longer. I have much on my plate right now and I'm gonna take it easy. I know what I want and when it walks by I'll grab onto it. I wish I would find it sooner rather than later!
