I'm almost at my wits end

Why can't NJTransit ever get you where you need to be at the time that they said you will be there? I have yet to ride a bus that came on time, or got to its destination on time. I really can't take it. I was trying to make a connection between a bus and a train. The bus was early to the stop i was supposed to catch it at and got me to my destination 14 minutes after the scheduled time of arrival. ugghhhhh....

I'm on my way to church, and put more than reasonable effort to going to an optional service. This thing ruined my whole evening. it really did and I'm in a severely grouchy mood because I couldn't make it. All I want to do now is go to sleep. I can't get out to my church outings like i want to because of work. So, when I'm off and can get to one i really try. Now you might say why didn't you catch the next thing running? The train I was catching was an express and woulda got me there just in time for me to be less than fashionably late while the later train wouldn't get me into the area until 1 hour after service started. I would then need to still get there. I would only get there around the time service would be about to start winding up. Did I mention I had an 11 year old with me? I think he was more disappointed than I was!

My day was going so well and now it's just not. I'm just sad...

New Apartment

I'm at the place that's to the left. Thanks google! :-)


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Mind Chain

I'm unreasonable in the idea that I shouldn't have to always clean up after a 40+ year old woman, her 17 year old daughter, the daughters 18 year old boyfriend, and whatever company they choose to have over the house. I'm unreasonable because I chose to not clean a sink that I did not leave dirty.

I'm a slob because I didn't clean an area that I didn't mess up. I'm a slob because I didn't do what was necessary to keep the place that I stay in presentable, because I felt like people should clean up behind themselves. I'm a slob because I don't think of anyone besides myself when I don't clean things because other people have to look at what I didn't clean up after someone else.

I'm a bitch because I didn't say anything about it. I'm a bitch because I say something about it. I'm a bitch when I do something about it. I'm a bitch when I don't do anything about it.

Does the same hold when I come home from work and clean up after everyone that chose to leave things everywhere? NO, it doesn't! Do I seek recognition when I go out of my way to maintain clean standards when everybody maintains a level of filth? NO, I don't! Let me decide for one moment that I'm going to let the people that mess things up clean things up and me stand aside, I'm a slob and a bitch. Guess what? I'm over it!

You wanna throw my shit out on the curb because I don't clean a sink? Cool, that saves me from moving it outside. You think we need a break cause I use logic and you are pig-headed? You always said if I don't like how things are going I could beat it right? Well my fingerprints will be on that door soon enough. I can't believe it's come to this over a sink. It's incredible! I'm tired of being shown the door. I'm tired of being offered the invitation to leave everyday when I question things about the space we live in. Trust and believe, I wont be going through it for much longer!

I think I'm just about over being your roommate. I'm leaving, I'm leaving! Don't matter if you wanna come dude be easy! I'm leaving! I don't know whether it's over but there's a cloudy sky over my relationship and I'm terrified. I don't want it to be over...

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