Knocked Out By My Faults!

Sigh, so here I am. Sitting here with Shawn having a personality discussion. My personality has been spotlighted. I don't know what to do! do I stay do I go, do I change or do I remain steadfast! It has been brought to my attention I have a few "character flaws".

The kinda of person that I am is one who tried to make everyone comfortable and I will put forth 100%, or very close if not more than 100%, effort to make sure people like me. I will even take it a step further, if I to see that you have a problem with me, I'll find out what it is. Then, I'll try ti fix it make amens so fourth and on. Problem in this scenario. It seems as though my "character flaws" were rendered by a group! So I asked, "what were they?" I do not think i was ready to hear what was said! That I act caddy, shady and dismissive. I said, "HUH"! It reminded me of this clip:

It caught me by left field that I was like wow! I really wanted to make an attempt to change despite the devastating blow. I do believe I was being denied the chance. It has me a lil low even though I am trying not to show it. Should I try to fix this, or should I break tradition and leave things things as they are? I understand that everyone won't like the charming fuzzy as I like to be known as but why can't I try to be liked by everyone?

Mixed Emotions

My long awaited departure from my job has finally come. YaY? No YaY? I really would've thought that today would be a happy day, a cheerful day even! I woke up and I have a feeling of blah. Its very similar to a dreadful feeling or a bad feeling of anticipation (like the feeling you get when you are getting ready to get a beating from daddy) lol!

I am thinking back onto previous jobs and seeing my downfalls. What made me hate the jobs. What made me leave them? What made me not want to go back? I want to make the correct next job choice based upon these answers. Yes that's right I am quitting my job without having one in line before. I am okay with that because I have fallout plans and backup plans up the whazoo. I WILL NOT FALL ON MY FACE! I don't like falling, lol... I had a plan of going into teaching, a cooking teacher to be more specific. I would need to go back to college for another 4 years. There might be a loophole in there somewhere but I will into that more on my extended vacation. Before I go ahead and spend money and time going to school for another 4 years I would like to know if I would even like teaching. So, I venture into the world of substitute teaching. If I don't like it I saved myself money and time, if I do then I found a career!

On a side note, somebody asked me how many people I send my "Word 4 Today" to and I honestly didn't know. I went back and counted the number of recipients and it totaled 78! I was shocked that 78 people are inspired my my word every morning. I am planning on doing a weekend email of an extended "Word 4 Today" The time is finally here for the email! and if all goes well, it may turn into a weekday thing as well!

Oh I know I am probably the last person that needs to talk about weight, but I gained 12-14 lbs back in the Feb-March period. I don't know how or where but it pasted itself on me somewhere. I have changed my diet around and saw some results but they were temporary. I am now happy to say I am 3 pounds away from where I used to be, 155lbs!

Well its about time that I go start my last day of work, Y'all wish me luck!

Cupcake

I wanna make a shoutout to my baby cupcake! He has been there for me and i just wanna be the icing on him! I love you Shawn, aka Cupcake!

Church Folks, A Social Class?

I was sitting in the choir stand at church. I was thinking to myself about my behavior and the behavior of other church people while they are in church. After much thought, I have come to the realization that many people who call themselves christians tent to place themselves on pedestals! I fell victim to this as well! Let me explain this...

There are the church people that come to church to show off their money. You have the people that see what kind of hand out they can get (not talkin about the spirit either)! I can't forget the ones that come to sit and cause trouble with their backbiting and gossip! Oh what about the phony people that come to tell you one thing and as soon as you turn around they're doing exactly what they told you not to do! HYPOCRITES! The bosses of the church, you know the ones that really have NO AUTHORITY whatsoever, are the ones I roll my eyes at!

I really place myself in the gossip corner. Is it gossip if it is the truth? If it isn't I take it back lol! Seriously though I think you can separate the church from everyone else because I truly believe that they/we think believe they/we are better than everyone else because we have Jesus.

Can someone shed their opinion and let me know how you feel about this?