I've been throwing a sex party for over two years now and I have seen so many things and experienced so many things. Some I can say I enjoyed and others I most likely won't do again. They are experiences none the less and they have held influence the sexual being I am at this moment.
The problem is I now view sex as something unemotional. Sex is the same as eating Chinese food, watching tv, playing a game, its something to do and there's nothing special about it anymore. I've seen and done way too much. The last time I had sex the guy said, "why does he always fall for ass that's not ready to settle down?" My mental response was, "why are you trying to settle down with my ass?" Coulda sworn I had personality a face, a body, hands, arms, legs, fingers and toes.
This led me to the thought of abstaining from sex until I'm in a relationship. I'm seriously considering it. I'm not a huge fan of jerking off, since I personally conquered my masturbation addiction around 2004. If I were to do this, I suppose I would just have to have more wet dreams. I might have more mood swings too. That right there would help my spiritual life, cause I would def have to pray more to keep me from snapping at someone, lol!
I think I just talked myself into it! No sex until an established relationship has been formed. This should be good. I've done a year without masturbation, now its time to buckle down the dick and lock up the booty. This should be an interesting ride. Did I mention I still suffer from the teen puberty sickness known as spontaneous erection? Yea... HERE WE GO!!!
Just Keep Wondering...
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