Random Importance

I don’t expect this post to be of any significance to anyone but myself. It’s all good though. I just wanted to make mention of some sporadic things that have been happening in my life. 

• I have a crush on this woman
• I stopped drinking alcohol
• I'm trusting God more often
• I am saying "no" more often
• I went suit shopping
• I started reading a book (Thanks Twin)
• I held a baby

I know you guys, and gals too, are like "ummm wha" to some of this. Let me try to explain some of it. Excuse me if I do not go into great detail, but there are some things I don’t wanna jinx as of yet. 

I've been talking to this woman. She has no idea that I'm talking about her, even if she reads this. I have a huge crush on her. Kinda sorta like a school boy crush. It's what it is but there is a lil more that makes it significant. While this may be a very minor crush, she has complimented me in ways that I've never been complimented by a woman. I'm excited! It was an ego boost. I felt giddy inside and I swear you couldn't get me to stop smiling! Distance will probably keep us apart but just the whole concept that she finds me sexy and attractive is enough for me! My closer friends might understand this a lil better than the passer by readers, lol

I stopped drinking alcohol for two reasons. I was momentarily hospitalized in the beginning of December. I believe it was less serious than how they portrayed me to be but oh well. The Doctor said I had food poisoning, stomach flu, a slight ulcer and was suffering from dehydration; all at one time. No biggie right? lol I was told no fried foods, low sodium foods and stay away from alcohol. Ummm, I just purchased some tequila, rum and vodka from the store! ::SIGH:: it will be here when all is well with me. Well my stomach was sooo sensitive to the death liquid I couldn't stomach it and I rejected it by mouth and dealt with another night of stomach pain. So, I said No Mo Fo Me! Secondly, I believe drinking was becoming a slow habit for me. Every time I could handle more and more before feeling the effects. I would mix lights and darks and handle it like a champ sometimes. All depending on whether 151 was one of the darks! lol I thought better for me to just quit altogether!

It’s easy to say we trust God but lately I'm acting on my trust. I'm reading my Bible more and studying more often. Making church more of a priority than it was has helped me. Giving from my heart instead of requirement has blessed me. 

Ok, I'm a lil horny... I admit it. It’s been awhile, HUSH UP Twin, since I had intercourse. I took these nice pics of me and I put them up on the sites, you know what they are! If you don't I wont enable you! Lol, moving on… I get offers and requests all of the time to do un-named actions! It would be nothing for me to say lets get it on! Let’s do the thing! I chose to do something different. I've been declining guys left and right. Only agreeing to meet those who I know their name, where they work and things you should know about a person before deciding to be sexual with someone. I looked back and how many times I said "no" and I smiled. I've put this value over my head and its going higher and higher. I feel it’s a good thing!

I haven't purchased a suit in over 3 years, going on 4 probably! I went and I got sized up for a suit. I looked and I got some ideas and I'll be purchasing 2 suits at the end of January, once my car and insurance policy is paid off. I'm Excited. I gotta get some shoes and accessories to go with it. Cufflinks, tie tacks and maybe a gold chain. That will come in February! Lol

The book I've wanted to finish reading for about 3 years and change has come back into my possession. It was a gift from Twin. Little does he know, I’m loving this book! Eternal Victim Eternal Victor written by Donnie McClurkin.  

I held a baby boy. I felt complete. I felt hope. I felt happy! Then after awhile of holding him I felt stinky! I wonder what the future holds for me!