Here I Stand

Right here right now, I stand at a confusing time
Looking right and walking left I stand
Wanting one and having the other
Living a life unwanted while dying in a dream unattained
Windowing destiny and opportunity, I stand
Barred from desires and yielding to the same
Floating in clouds of uncertainty hovering unable to light
Here I stand, tired, weary and afraid to be confident
Confident of events unseen, confident in potential contentment
Confident in myself, confident of life
In the state I am, wherever it be, here I stand!

I wrote this because this is how I feel more often than desired. I wrote this because someone really can find themselves in here. I like this poem because I'm not the only one that is or has felt this way. I didn't post this to attain any kind of sympathy, but rather as a checkpoint for myself.

This a time for me where I'm evaluating what holds weight in my life. What needs attention and what needs to be prioritized. At some point in everyones life there has to be a change. There has to be a mark where things must be different. I'm there. I recognize the changes that must be made. The issue lies where and when the decision must be made to step into this change. I titled the post using the word stand. Meaning not moving. Described actions that portrayed actions contradicting other actions which leads me to moving nowhere. Thus, here I stand.

I wish I could move...