So much happened this weekend! It was like the best/worst weekend I have had in a long time! Here comes the rundown!
Friday- I went to work and put my hours in. Came home and tutored some kids. Then went to my old church to hear my big cousin preach. He's a newly appointed Elder and a national evangelist for C.O.G.I.C. worldwide. He preached with a topic "What happened to the power?" and was dynamic! I came home and was in a mood to go out. Everyone had plans and I waited for a guy online to come thru he never came. I sat and waited for nothing! I drifted off to sleep with a wasted Friday night!
Saturday- My dad is coming back today. That means I have to get the house to where it was before he left! moving furniture and a few other things. I said whatever to all of that and just cleaned everything! I was determined to have a good time on Saturday. I worked a grand total of 71.5 hours this week and I won't see most of that till the end of the month! Damned pay periods! I have been exhausted all week! I wanna have a good time with whatever lil change I have to rub together! I'll make it work!
Here is where it gets interesting! Twin, Shawn and his date went out! We went to TGI's and to the city. We had a blast. I was comfortable and was happy Shawn was happy. He won't know this till reads this, but I wanted to lick him! He looked so sexy and all I wanted to do was give him a nice kiss! Did I mention I was drunk? Yea... Drunk... Its been over a month since I had sex and my hormones are really getting the best of me and I curbed my feelings and urges, even under he influence. I saw him kiss his date and I cringed a bit, but I wasn't lastingly bothered. I had fun. After the Vill, I came to twin's house and fell victim to his couch.
Sunday- I think I have my first hangover! I woke up with a headache and nausea! It was bad. I didn't wanna move too much cause I didn't wanna bear all to the sidewalk, as I made my way to my car to go to church. I get there and service was high and lifted up! I got my shout in for sure! I claimed my healing of that Got Damned Nausea! lol I hung out with my pastor for the day. He plays for another church in Newark as the senior musician.
I needed a refreshment. I went downstairs, in the church, to get a Coke. I needed to stay awake. I stopped in the bathroom and looked in the mirror and admired. I know I have always admired myself, but that has always been with no shirt, nude, or in some sexual pose. This time I saw me as everyone else would see me. Fully clothed and conservative. This is the first time I have truly seen myself as attractive and liked it. I took some pics on my phone...
This is a milestone for me! I'm coming out of my insecure self and becoming a confident man. I even asked my pastor this question. "If I told you I had problems with self esteem, would you believe me?" He said he knew that way before I told him. Way before I was a member of his church. He said I try to hide it and I do a very good job. He went on to further say that God told him to watch over me because of this! 2 years ago! Ummm hello! I'm gonna need God and my pastor to stop talkin behind my back!
My Sunday is long, aint it? lol I wanted to go out to this lounge in Newark. I don't know the name, but it's on Williams St., downtown. I wanted to go with this guy I wanted to chill with on friday night. He felt bad that he's missed both of my parties, and 2 chill nights. So he offered to drive to NY to Esqualitas. Princess Janee was hosting a diva search. It was nice. What I didn't mention is that my jacket was stolen, and I got 3 tickets. @ on the way to Orange and came back to Orange to find a parking ticket. Needless to say my black ass will stay out of Orange! But the guy was cute, fun and a great time. By no means a date but two guys having fun. I'm glad that I didn't allow the first two tickets to get me down... That would of been the old fuzzy for sure. Getting depressed at the very most minor thing possible! I am changing for the better!
Monday- I really don't wish to talk about today much. I paid 2 months of rent this afternoon. I wanna say I'm sorry to a friend(s) of mine. I thought I was clear with my intentions to pay you back. I thought you understood where I was coming from. I thought saw my situation. I thought you wouldn't let this come between us. It has. I'm sorry. I never meant to take advantage of you. I never meant to take this long to pay you back. I have been busting my back for the last two weeks trying to play catch-up with everything. Working extended work weeks. Falling asleep at work, barely functioning, going sleepless nights, I thought you would see that. I said that I was paying everybody back in a previous post. I just am waiting to see the fruits of my labor. I try to be a man of my word. What I say I try to make true on! I do my best. Apparently that wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry. You'll have your money in two weeks! Again I'm sorry...
My weekend ended on Monday, at 1:55pm. "You can keep the attitude Daniel..." My weekend ended on a horrible note (text message).
Friday- I went to work and put my hours in. Came home and tutored some kids. Then went to my old church to hear my big cousin preach. He's a newly appointed Elder and a national evangelist for C.O.G.I.C. worldwide. He preached with a topic "What happened to the power?" and was dynamic! I came home and was in a mood to go out. Everyone had plans and I waited for a guy online to come thru he never came. I sat and waited for nothing! I drifted off to sleep with a wasted Friday night!
Saturday- My dad is coming back today. That means I have to get the house to where it was before he left! moving furniture and a few other things. I said whatever to all of that and just cleaned everything! I was determined to have a good time on Saturday. I worked a grand total of 71.5 hours this week and I won't see most of that till the end of the month! Damned pay periods! I have been exhausted all week! I wanna have a good time with whatever lil change I have to rub together! I'll make it work!
Here is where it gets interesting! Twin, Shawn and his date went out! We went to TGI's and to the city. We had a blast. I was comfortable and was happy Shawn was happy. He won't know this till reads this, but I wanted to lick him! He looked so sexy and all I wanted to do was give him a nice kiss! Did I mention I was drunk? Yea... Drunk... Its been over a month since I had sex and my hormones are really getting the best of me and I curbed my feelings and urges, even under he influence. I saw him kiss his date and I cringed a bit, but I wasn't lastingly bothered. I had fun. After the Vill, I came to twin's house and fell victim to his couch.
Sunday- I think I have my first hangover! I woke up with a headache and nausea! It was bad. I didn't wanna move too much cause I didn't wanna bear all to the sidewalk, as I made my way to my car to go to church. I get there and service was high and lifted up! I got my shout in for sure! I claimed my healing of that Got Damned Nausea! lol I hung out with my pastor for the day. He plays for another church in Newark as the senior musician.
I needed a refreshment. I went downstairs, in the church, to get a Coke. I needed to stay awake. I stopped in the bathroom and looked in the mirror and admired. I know I have always admired myself, but that has always been with no shirt, nude, or in some sexual pose. This time I saw me as everyone else would see me. Fully clothed and conservative. This is the first time I have truly seen myself as attractive and liked it. I took some pics on my phone...
This is a milestone for me! I'm coming out of my insecure self and becoming a confident man. I even asked my pastor this question. "If I told you I had problems with self esteem, would you believe me?" He said he knew that way before I told him. Way before I was a member of his church. He said I try to hide it and I do a very good job. He went on to further say that God told him to watch over me because of this! 2 years ago! Ummm hello! I'm gonna need God and my pastor to stop talkin behind my back!
My Sunday is long, aint it? lol I wanted to go out to this lounge in Newark. I don't know the name, but it's on Williams St., downtown. I wanted to go with this guy I wanted to chill with on friday night. He felt bad that he's missed both of my parties, and 2 chill nights. So he offered to drive to NY to Esqualitas. Princess Janee was hosting a diva search. It was nice. What I didn't mention is that my jacket was stolen, and I got 3 tickets. @ on the way to Orange and came back to Orange to find a parking ticket. Needless to say my black ass will stay out of Orange! But the guy was cute, fun and a great time. By no means a date but two guys having fun. I'm glad that I didn't allow the first two tickets to get me down... That would of been the old fuzzy for sure. Getting depressed at the very most minor thing possible! I am changing for the better!
Monday- I really don't wish to talk about today much. I paid 2 months of rent this afternoon. I wanna say I'm sorry to a friend(s) of mine. I thought I was clear with my intentions to pay you back. I thought you understood where I was coming from. I thought saw my situation. I thought you wouldn't let this come between us. It has. I'm sorry. I never meant to take advantage of you. I never meant to take this long to pay you back. I have been busting my back for the last two weeks trying to play catch-up with everything. Working extended work weeks. Falling asleep at work, barely functioning, going sleepless nights, I thought you would see that. I said that I was paying everybody back in a previous post. I just am waiting to see the fruits of my labor. I try to be a man of my word. What I say I try to make true on! I do my best. Apparently that wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry. You'll have your money in two weeks! Again I'm sorry...
My weekend ended on Monday, at 1:55pm. "You can keep the attitude Daniel..." My weekend ended on a horrible note (text message).
16 thoughts:
Just something I learned a long time ago, money will screw up everything.
2 words of advice from an old ass, never borrow money from a friend unless you really really need it, because it can sour a relationship in an instant. And secondly, never lend any money to a friend unless you can afford to lose it or risk losing that friendship.
Um, yea - you had a long ass weekend. LOL at ur pastor and God talking behind ur back. I'm upset with you and Shawn. I need you to listen to Jennifer Hudson's song "We Gon' Fight" and do something about this - mkay? I've been talking to God too behind ur back...He's saying Shawn, Shawn, Shawn!
I'm so proud of you for this weekend, after working 70 something hours you deserved to get out and live!!
You should have pulled a reality TV move and kissed Shawn as well, we all know he wanted you as well.
Ill comment on the pic tomorrow, even though I know its FLY! :)
Tell your friend to kick back the money is coming but not until you make it!
Thats a rite full weekend indeed! I don't do the church thing so I woulda started off my friday differently.
Scrub them floors and get the mop Cinderella! She put those kinda hours in too! Between that bitch of a stepmother and the bitchy step sisters, baby! haaa
3 tickets? I dread 1, and you got 3? You can keep those! Those jersey cops don't play around, you should know better! Look out more carefully ya hear?
It sounds like you are going to pay whoever back their money. What are they getting bent out of shape for? It doesn't seem like you're skipping town, so why all the grief? Why are you apologizing like that? Once is enough dude, get it together!
Yeah your weekend was long lol. im glad you were able to pull it together for church tho lol.
I wanna know more about this text...
money sucks, no?
This is why I never expect it back when it leaves my bank account. lol. I made my peace from the get-go that I'd never see it again. And if I do, I'll just be pleasantly surprised and go buy an electronic gadget with it.
And whatever happened to the cooking thingy btw?
-- Dusty.
umm not everyone would see u that way.. unless they was in the mens bathroom too !
those pink wall tiles sure show off your lovely skin color though....
I hate money, its so evil. Cute pics though!
hey pumpkin! i'm glad you had a semi alright weekend. church seemed good... well at least the part you were there for, because it was clearly interrupted by a bathroom photoshoot...mmm. heathen. And i know it's beginning to be cliche, but in all reality, money is tight. for everyone. the disappearence of the "middle class" is becoming all the more apparent and people are losing their minds! Dont sweat the small stuff. it'll get better. And i love your eyes and eyelashes! they always give me life! I can't wait til the reunion...
I have to commend you and Shawn for being friends so soon after you two parted ways. I dated this guy for two years and didn't want to see his face or hear his name for a good year after we broke up. It's been about 18-months and we're friends now. I still wouldn't double date with him and is new guy though. You're a brave man for that.
All in all, I want to be friends with Shawn. I have to place my feelings aside and deal with them on my own time, away from him, and work on my friendship. I first wanted to be his friend before we got into a relationship, now I want to maintain it. We will eventually have to deal with each other having dates and hearing of experiences. Why not start now and condition myself for later?
I think we can help each other out alot in many aspects. I want to be there and I want him to be there for me. He was my support for such a long time and, even though not often recently, still serves as a support for me. A listening ear. I'll post about this soon...
Sounds like things are starting to go back to normal...im glad.
After a 70hr work week?!?!...I would've been comatose. lol!
Are you still thinking about starting your catering service?
;-)
hey Fuzzy just came by to say have a great weekend, hopefully you have something fun planned. :)
You are just now experiencing your 1st hangover ever! Lucky you. I wish I could say that!
Finally getting around to reading this and it is really interesting, whom would have thought that you had an issue with self esteem? Confident young man with a bright future. I am pleased that you discovered and learned to appreciate you the real you.
Okay so your weekend wasn't what you wanted exactly, but you gotta admit the 15 hours you spent in that church shouting and climbing pews while listening to the word was worth it all!
Money never borrow, never lend always accept as gift or give as gift.
Oh by the way the photo shoot in the church bathroom nice, yes you are handsome.
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