Interjectection!

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Wow! Oh no! Good Lawd! Yeah... Hmmm... Ummm... Well!

All of those words at once! Yea I know I said I was gonna let you influence my next post, which would of been this one, but things happen. Some things happened at church on yesterday that would be monumental for me to mention. It just had to be said, that's all there is to it!

I went to church, after waking up at a friends place. I was conditioning myself, ever since the day before, to be to church on time. At church we had a special speaker, not to me, but to everyone else. I knew him. So, I was like yea, no surprise for me! Service was over, it was a HIGH time and I drove my Pastor to the church that he plays for. I gotta take care of him; he's a great Pastor and I don't want him over doing himself. So, that service was okay. I really don't particularly like the atmosphere at that church. I'm there for support purposes so, it's whatever.

I get back to the Pastor's house and First Lady and Sister Soandso are talking. Talking about nothing in particular but just talking about the body of Christ and whatever else subject came up. First Lady said that she had a bone to pick with Sister Soandso and I. Leaving out Sister Soandso, she told me that I was stubborn. She said that there is something that is so very small that is in my way, that I'm holding on to, that is preventing me from accepting my calling.

::PAUSE::

I have had a great idea of what my calling is and have ignored it. I have only admitted it to myself and dismissed at the same time. Its been about 3 years I have known and ignored. It was something I wanted no part of! I thought I didn't fit the mold. I ran from my calling because I never got any confirmation from a trusted source!

::UNPAUSE::

She went on to ask when I would realize that I have a gift. She told me that I know the word so well, and have a clear understanding of it at the same time! She said that I have this power working inside of me that I'm suppressing. She emphasized that I didn't know what I was working with. She finished the conversation by saying that I knew about it all and I'm choosing not to embody my calling. She said that if it wasn't for God telling me this I would of never told you. "When are you going to step and be the minister God wants you to be, that you know you should be?"

I couldn't say a word. That I thought in my mind was: Wow! Oh no! Good Lawd! Yeah... Hmmm... Ummm... Well! I felt like I just got a beating! So, I had to post this. The day I received proof of my calling!