So Less Than 3 Hours Later

On Friday, the inspection lady for my complex comes to inspect the apartment. I had no clue she was coming. I was the only one here and I was overly knocked out when she knocked on the door. I let her in and she cruised the apartment. She said that some parts of the stove hadn't been well cleaned, the counter tops were dirty where my father keeps these ridiculous looking tiles, and some cabinet doors are dirty. Not much. I chalked it all up to my father not seeing it. I take it upon myself to clean it up since he wouldn't be able to see what to clean.

Now that we're all caught up to these past few moments, I can share what just happened. I came home from church and immediately begin cleaning. I wanted to do something or go somewhere this afternoon. The lady is supposed to come for reinspection on tomorrow sometime, so I needed to have everything done today. I get to the stove and find a cigarette butt and what seemed to be some of the burned remains of the actual cigarette. All burned of course, it's right next to the burner. I don't touch other peoples cigarettes. I don't buy other peoples cigarettes. I don't even transport them! It's my principles. I thought to myself, I will tell my father to remove the butt since he is the one who left it there!

Father walks in while I am on the phone with Shawn. I dismiss myself from the convo to finish cleaning and to address the issue at hand. I asked, "can you please remove the cigarette from the stove?" he replied very defensive and argued why couldn't I do it. I explained. he blew up. I remained calm. He threw in, "this is why we don't have a relationship. I been trying to build a relationship with you and It seems like you could care less!" I respond, "thats the problem right there! how long have you been trying?" Father says, "for the past 3 years!" I say, "Exactly! Thats the whole thing right there! You waited until I was 20 to start being a father to me. Every single other of your kids had your attention since birth! I got it by default when your wife died!"

He left to go upstairs. I hope I finally got through to him on how bad he fucked up! There is no second chances here. He had too many first chances and REDOs! If he wants me to like him then he is going to have to take an overly reasonable amount of effort to make it happen. PERIOD! My day goes unaltered! I handled an adult situation dealing with a relationship problem without yelling, pouting, crying, getting heavily emotional, or running to Big Brother for advice! I am proud of myself for real for real!

Now, hmmm, what now to do? Shawn is going to the city and invited me to join him. I really don't feel like traveling all the way to NY. I wonder will today make my al time daily record of 3 posts in a day? hmmm