Sunday past, I didn't go to church. I didn't have a good reason. I was sleep next to ma bf. My alarm went off and I just didn't get up. Contributing factors would include me working an unusual day during the workweek and my biological calender was off kilter. I did wake up once thinking it was Saturday. Then, I've been borderline exhausted for a coupla days. I have been staying up wit Gabe for various reasons. The other is feeling some kinda way that my Pastor's Mom died. This brought up some feelings and thoughts I was experiencing and even currently formulating about religion and church.
I do know that I missed going, but at the same time I didn't feel like going. I needed a moment away to regroup. It may be time for one of those 1st lady talks. We speak on a spread of things, between her and I, and we're just as real as real can get. I don't know, I guess I feel kinda heavy and I need a release before I explode. I once thought that church was going to eventually become a thing of the past. That specific thought still passes my mind from time to time. We'll see how things pan out.
Keep On Wondering...
I do know that I missed going, but at the same time I didn't feel like going. I needed a moment away to regroup. It may be time for one of those 1st lady talks. We speak on a spread of things, between her and I, and we're just as real as real can get. I don't know, I guess I feel kinda heavy and I need a release before I explode. I once thought that church was going to eventually become a thing of the past. That specific thought still passes my mind from time to time. We'll see how things pan out.
Keep On Wondering...
4 thoughts:
You shoulda thought about that before you became a deacon... ;-)
It is okay to miss a Sunday service every once and awhile as long as it doesn't become habit forming. You may not have felt like attending church this past Sunday, but you could have attended Bedside Baptist right in bed, tuning into television church for an half hour or so in the absence of your regular church would have been fine and Gabe would have been right beside you.
Sorry you're feeling down about the pastor's mother passing away, keep in mind that Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can not heal.
It is okay to miss a Sunday...
not okay when you have a major role in the church...
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