Off my mind

I was riding on the train, on my way home from work and happened to drift into the land of thought as I looked out the window. I thought about my new job, my relationship with Gabe, my current healthy open friendships and living situations. All of which I'll get into in a bit. I just have to take just a moment to shoot off some steam.

So get this, after work I walked to the CVS, that was on the other side of the train station by Kean University, only to discover that it was closed. Now I'm thinkin all sorts of crazy things, most of them violent. I stand for my entire shift and unnecessary walking is just horrible. Who has a drug store that's 10 mins walking from the Kean dorms that's not 24 hours? Whatever... I quick-walked and pumped back to the train station make it to my sleeping place. I get to Newark Penn and I notice a brightly lit Walgreen's in the near distance. I figured its by a populated area, a major train station, and near police who do nothing. I walk there and guess what? They're closed too! The only thing 8 wanted to do was pick some triple antibiotic ointment some medi tape and gauze. Just tending to a wound that Gabe has that he's scared to go get checked out. My opinion may not be factual, lol. OK, that was part one of my brief rant...

... here's part two. My car being disabled in a location that's not close to me is a pain. I went to move the thing again so it doesn't get a ticket and I experience more than intended. The thing is disabled in the first place because the wheel fell off while I was driving it. I managed to get the donut to stay but it wasn't secure. When I tried to move it today I was about to lose the donut and be in a real bad predicament. All my lugs were stripped of their tread and were barely holding onto anything. So here I am, located right in the middle of an intersection with a car that's about to show its ass again. Trying to secure this wheel so I can park the car. I tried taking a lug off of another wheel and that seemed to work. A grateful me inched the car back into a safe parking area and made my way. Saved by a nut! I kust love a good nut, lol

Back to my irregularly scheduled post. I now work for Cougars Den at Kean University. It's a breath of culinary fresh air. Haven't been in a kitchen in some time and I noticed it on my first day. I tried to reacquaint myself with common cooking terms and recipes I should know. For now I'm working about 30-32 hours on average. I don't wanna over do things by stressing my body out. All in all, I am warming up to the job and learning quite quickly. Recipes are being remembered, less questions being asked and things are flowing. I believe that in another week I should be able to function with little to no assistance or help.

On to Gabe. I realized that I'm in a relationship. I'm doin for Gabe and Gabe is doing for me. We care for each other. We like each other. Most importantly, we're going against opposition and making this relationship work. It's a unique relationship and I wont really get into the specifics because its not really for anyone to know but myself and him. If I need venting then blogger will be the first to read. Through it all, the apartment issues, the car issues, the friend issues and finances, we stuck with each other. I got his back and he has mine. For the most part, we work. Isn't that what most people want? To work? I really can't think of a couple or marriage that completely functions 100% well. So, if I can be mostly satisfied with someone, I'll take it. Yes, you heard right I'm settling.

Severing friendships has left me without chat buddies, text buddies and somewhere to go or someone to go out with when I don't wanna be home or with Gabe. I'm leery on placing effort on getting to know anyone new because I don't wish to end up with people that aren't going where I'm going and aren't on the same page that I am. But I think I wanna meet two people and befriend them. I want a female and a male chill bud. Tired of hanging around testosterone all of the time. Where is the estrogen at?

Looking for another apartment. Right now I'm staying with a friend of Gabe's. Not my desired living conditions, but I have shelter over my head and I'm thankful. Plus, until I am able to stand on my own feet, they get a piece of change for me staying here. It benefits both me and them. Lookin for a spacious 1 bedroom or a decent sized 2 bedroom apartment for a reasonable price. I'm gonna be sharing the space with Gabe. I want to be able to afford the apt by myself. It's nice to have assistance and all, but reality tells me that people will not always be around to help you. If or when the event comes and I need my apartment, I need to be able to support myself. I just need it to have a spacious kitchen with a stove, a bathtub and a window for AC. I'll find one, I'm confident.

It has taken me more time than I wished to write this post. I've started on the phone, then went on the pc and now ending on the phone. ughh... I need food... ttyl...