Back To Work

Seems like I've been blacklisted, from my first job, and it really didn't feel too good. Prior to today, I've worked all of 2 days. My bank account is like "WHAT" and I keep seeing that balance drop and that's not cool. Well I showed up and said my lil piece about not having work, and I feel I was fed a lot of BS. I did receive an assignment for 3 days for makeup testing, but that is just going to put pressure on the wound, it's not going to heal it. I'm thankful none the less and I'm here at work doing absolutely nothing!

I got here and they were like, "we really don't need you here." I responded with, "uhhh I drove here, after I was told to come, and you're telling me I don't need to be here?" She looked and we stared for an awkward 10-15 seconds. She made a page and arranged some BS assignment for my day. I have 2 classes, out of a 9 period day, to actually do some sort of work. I'm gonna take my money, but I'm not exactly happy about having to keep myself alert to get through a non productive day. On the up side, I ain't gotta do shit! hahaha

I've sent my Mornin Manna about attitudes and moods and such and so forth and I think I'm gonna have to check mine. I've heard from other coworkers that I've been on people's lips more often than I should. Might I add, not in a positive and nurturing way. I gotta love my haters, really I do. Without haters, I feel like I might not be doing some things right. If nobody is talking about you, you either hang around swell people, and that's applaudable, or you're not doing anything worthwhile to be talked about! So, to all my haters in the place: DA DA DA DA!!!

In other news, Gabe and I had a lil heart to heart about me. Very beneficial and helpful in the effective development of my character. I never had someone give me a pep talk about my self worth and make it hit home, make sense, while not offending me. Then he finished with saying, "but I still like you." He initially asked me what I needed from him, I didn't have a prepared response. I started blurting things that I needed, or so I thought I needed, that would generally apply. Based on my response, he pulled together that I had traces of low self esteem. That bitch, low self esteem that is, behaves just like an unwanted disease. It just lingers and lingers. I'm gonna work on me just a lil bit more. Always room for growth, ya know?

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