I'm laying down in my bed, steaming... I'm hot... this is a fresh wound. My anger is high, my rage is growing and I'm steamin! Why are people so freakin backwards? Why does family talk behind each others backs? Why do people constantly say blood is thicker than water but are the first ones to stab you in the heart, the back, and watch you bleed?
I'm feeling abandoned. The only family that I hold close is my brother, his wife and kids. I come into knowledge that he's talkin about me and my friend that's staying with me. He's feeding my father info saying that he needs to tell me he needs to go! Talkin like 2 guys in the same bed ain't right! GROW UP!!! There is a living room with my cousin and her baby here, my dad's bedroom and my bedroom with friend and myself! The only other room is the kitchen! There is no room for more beds or air mattresses. More importantly, why is it your problem? He doesn't even live here! This is bullshit and I'm over it! Stop actin like my father! The father I have ain't shit!
Speaking of the ain't shit father, he blows up at my friend this morning after I left for work. Back story... Dre came over. We played video games, talked and went out to shoprite for some juice so we can eat. Ate, slept, woke up and was off to work. I come back shortly because I have a 1 1/2 hour break. I left and go back to work. Enter the text message! My father is talkin stuff like he doesn't want any hanky panky funny business going on or anyone spending the night! this and this, that and that... whatever! Who in hell is he to say that? I pay 60% of the rent and he is telling me? Woah son... nah not happening like that!
You have done mad stuff in this house, hypocritical things at that! How are you gonna come at me left field with this? How you gonna pull the daddy card when you've done absolutely nothing worthwhile to raise me! I'm layin down and he just walked into the house and I need to go to sleep! I'm feeling violent I need to calm down...
I'm leaning towards excommunication of my father and brother and completely being alone. Its better than keeping hypocritical, caniving, and phony people around. Family is over-rated and I'm ready to write them off. I need sleep! Why me? Damn I'm so hurt right now...
I'm feeling abandoned. The only family that I hold close is my brother, his wife and kids. I come into knowledge that he's talkin about me and my friend that's staying with me. He's feeding my father info saying that he needs to tell me he needs to go! Talkin like 2 guys in the same bed ain't right! GROW UP!!! There is a living room with my cousin and her baby here, my dad's bedroom and my bedroom with friend and myself! The only other room is the kitchen! There is no room for more beds or air mattresses. More importantly, why is it your problem? He doesn't even live here! This is bullshit and I'm over it! Stop actin like my father! The father I have ain't shit!
Speaking of the ain't shit father, he blows up at my friend this morning after I left for work. Back story... Dre came over. We played video games, talked and went out to shoprite for some juice so we can eat. Ate, slept, woke up and was off to work. I come back shortly because I have a 1 1/2 hour break. I left and go back to work. Enter the text message! My father is talkin stuff like he doesn't want any hanky panky funny business going on or anyone spending the night! this and this, that and that... whatever! Who in hell is he to say that? I pay 60% of the rent and he is telling me? Woah son... nah not happening like that!
You have done mad stuff in this house, hypocritical things at that! How are you gonna come at me left field with this? How you gonna pull the daddy card when you've done absolutely nothing worthwhile to raise me! I'm layin down and he just walked into the house and I need to go to sleep! I'm feeling violent I need to calm down...
I'm leaning towards excommunication of my father and brother and completely being alone. Its better than keeping hypocritical, caniving, and phony people around. Family is over-rated and I'm ready to write them off. I need sleep! Why me? Damn I'm so hurt right now...
13 thoughts:
Lord knows I have had my share of family issues, we all do. That is one thing you can't control, what family you were born into! You are in good company on that point.
Okay here is a lesson, that I have learned, I'm still learning it, but each year it gets easier to do. Sometimes you have to love people from a distance.
I love yo, but you stay over there, for me to love you. You keep your distance from me, and I will continue to love yah.
I think you are upset, but I think you need to put your college 20 dollar words away, you don't mean it. There will be no excommunication up in there today. What kind of talk is that from the man who is suppose too be having the spiritual eye sharpening thing going on. The bible says you have to love one another. However you Don't have to LIKE them.
Just keep it moving, and let it roll off your back.
Keep in mind your plan on saving money, and move out later, and they can't say squat to you, and who you have in your bed.
*breathe breathe* !!
Family does that because family figures they can get away with murder (some literally.... some figuratively).
I thought your father doesn't live with you... or does he...
Maybe it's time to revisit the apartment idea. If it'll give you sanity, then it's worth it. I know you said the savings account would be anorexic, but if it gives you sanity...
I know how you feel about the family thing...don't really bother with mine like that either...just do the holiday thing and that's about it...
u dont need a nap you need craigslist... this is why grown ass folk shouldnt live with parents. even if you are paying rent they always think they are in control of the situation.
and 60% of the rent with 2 other grown as people... time to move my friend.
There's a lot going on with you. Good luck and just breathe
So what's the update on that little apartment you found not to long ago? Sounds like you need to leave that household and soon!
call me if you need to talk.
Wow - sounds like a lot going on - I hope it all gets better, for real.
Do what you have to do while you have to do it. I think the relationship with your family members will improve once you are living independently. Never write people off, though; you never know who you'll need in the future. If I were you, I'd go for a walk somewhere. Be easy.
Awwww ..im going to call you now. Luv ya punk
Move baby boi. That is the best and probably only option amour.
Time for you to move! And like I was telling you at the party, your relationship with your father will get better once you move out, since you two won't be in each other's faces every day. Hell, he just might even miss you enough to ask for to move back in (just like my aunt said to me).
Sounds like a rough time for you. Take your time and make a decision that will bring you peace.
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