Okay, so I have been feeling a specific sort of way. I have been in and out of bad and good times. I've been on the bridge of oportunity many time and haven't crossed for whatever reason. I am my own hinderance and possibly my own stumbling block as well.
I understand that things will not do themselves and success does not fall in one's lap. At the very same time, someone ordering you to do this and that does not make one move any faster! In actuality, it makes me move slower and further unmotivates me. It is the equivalent of wanting to go to work vs the need of going to work. You get better results when you can get yourself to act on one's own desires.
My aim is to grow and go places. I need structure and a strong foundation. I want to do this right, but I don't want to be move swiftly. I need to know what I want and where I need to be. I have to know what my weaknesses are so I can recognize when I am about to be weakened, for the purpose of preventing unneeded delays and being counterproductive. All of that to say I have recognized some weakpoints, the company I keep. There are acquaintances, friends and family that contribute to mood changes in myself. Their personalities have traits, that when displayed around me (in-person, phone, internet, etc), effect me in a negative way.
I am tired of tolerating people in my immediate surroundings. I am exhausting of hosting a pity party for the indeserving. I am finally accepting the fact that I cannot accomodate everyone all of the time. I no longer wish to reserve my tongue. I don't wish to bring anybody down on my blog. So, if this fits you or offends you, you can take the exit stage left out of my life. I will Kindly say goodbye, and bid you a good life!
Been on my mind for about a week and some change now. I needed to vent that. It was dwelling and felt harbored.
As for previous situations, I have taken my car to the mechanic. I left my house to meet the mechanic as he was opening the shop. Great timing if I should say! He got out his diagnosing thingamagiggy and read the car's computer. Kermy said that my cylinders have multiple misfires. Mechanic looked at engine and listened and did his thing. He comes out from under the hood to say that the only thing I need is a tuneup! I said COOL! He quoted $240 and I was happy with that. I told him I would be back next week to have the work done (I gotta get my last paycheck, lol).
I did get my ICEE later on that night. I will add a pic later (blogger on my cell phone is very limited). It was SOOOOO good! I had a great July 4th with the family. I was in and out of moods on Saturday because of what happened to Timothy Wright and his family. I am relieved at this point that he is still alive. For those that don't know, he, along with his wife and 14 year old grandson, were hit by a drunk driver. As of know my best knowledge is that the wife died at the scene early Saturday morning; the grandson died Sunday morning.
I have been chatting with a very cool person from blogger. I have made this cool friend and we have much in common. He knows who he is, but big shout out to you! Thanks for being an ear for when I was down! :-)
Okay, I did mention that I did this post on a cell phone right? Yeah, my fingers are tired right now! Everyone have a good night/morning/afternoon/evening!
11 years ago
14 thoughts:
Its a good thing when you can recognize when things/people bring out negative traits in you. One thing that I have learned is that sometimes you have to rid urself of certain people/things in order to move onto the next level. Although this may be a difficult task to complete, time away from these situations helps u get urself together.
Now on a less serious note...clearly ur gonna have to sign up for a 12-step program for ur addiction to Coke ICEE. Don't say anything about me and my ice coffee cuz Im talkin bout ur addiction.
Well, I was happy last night when I got your IM about you being better. That's a good thing bruh. Just learn how to keep your head up. It's hard at first, but like anything, the more you do it the easier it becomes!
I thought that DJ - his grandson was still alive?
nevermind - I just googled it - yup, DJ died too. Damn. But God never makes a mistake. Just gotta keep remembering that.
I read this post from somebdy's blog, I can't remember right now who...lol I read a lot of them, but anyway the post was about how certain people changes others personalities when they are around. In this post they were talking about how a friend told them, that they get to be the real and the best them, when they are around this blogger.
You just need to find those people that aloow you to be the best Fuzzy you can be, when you are around them.
Everything you were talking about, is the same things, I struggle with myself daily. I don't think I have found those people yet, who allow me to be the most productive and the best personI can be when they are around.
I was going to mention something about Timothy Wright on my blog too, but forgot. The only thing I can say, is that God must be going to use this tragedy as a testimony for Timothy, that could possible save or help someone. I know it must be hard for him, to be the only one to survive.
I remember this old gospel song once, where the singer, who I guess was a pastor, was singing about how his best memebrs died all in an accident, and he asked God why, them?, they were his best and most faithful saints, and God told him, because they were ready!
I pray, that he is able to recover spiritually from this tragedy.
Seems like we are always growing and seeing with clearer eyes. Seperating dead weight from strong wings. Sounds like you are just exploring self, knowing where your boundaries are, and there is nothing wrong with that.
Just keep moving onward and upward man.
Wow, I am amazed that you wrote all of this via cell phone.
I am so glad that you are working on cleaning the negative folks out of your life. That is a very positve thing to do. Never allow people to steal your joy; not even freinds. Plus, if they are stealing your joy, they ain't friend anyway.
Just like I said on my post about friends. You get to pick who they are. So those that you recognize not to be friends should be removed because they only put weight on your spirit. It's unfortunate but a part of life just the same. You're a strong man and you WILL be ok.
We are all praying for Pastor Wright, such a tragic event.
I too along time ago had to separate myself from people who bring me down. Since that time my life has been able to progress much better and I have added people who affirm who I am and support my goals.
... u're lucky u already have people around you that could motivate you to reach ur goals... you know u do...
You have to BECOME your project, if you really want to succeed, so u'll never be distracted from ur goal !
it's hard but it's all up to u fuzz...
Hey Baby. I'm happy to hear you has you a new friend. Well I came to tell you me and Mabel den answered ALL them questions you had for us on our new post. You come on ova to visit us soon. Take care now.
Signed
Ruthie Ann
Fuzzy it saddens me to hear you talk about your mood changes, now do not misunderstand me because we all change moods from time to time however; it is important that you balance things out in your life so that the mood changes doesn't occur so rapidly. You have one life and there is no deposit and no return so make the best of it and for the sake of the universe never allow bad elements to surround you shyte kick those people to the curb.
Fuzzy got his ICCEE!
Brotha check this out you have one of the strongest support groups in Blogtopia, I read a lot of blogs (when time permits) and everybody seems to love them some Fuzzy! With that being said you have no reason to ever be down because a keystroke or touchtone away somebody is there for you, utilize it.
Sorry to hear about that family involved in the accident that claimed the lives of some of their family members; I am a strong believer that "Earth has no Sorrow that Heaven can not Heal."
Pleased that you enjoyed family and friends during the 4th of July weekend. Glad to know you are getting your vehicle tuned up or repaired.
Oh yeah "We all know to whom you have become special friends with, yeah him the blogger." He is another favorite and you should develope a great friendship.
Oh to be young again. If I were to type a post up like this on a cell phone, I'm sure I would feel the arthritis build up and the joints stiffen up in my index finger by the minute. As for the choosing and losing of friends or people that surround you, it may at times be difficult, so be careful in your choices.
Keeping growing and learning, cutie.. and, um.. you posted this from your cell? I can't even imagine it...
I've come to find, that even when you want to cut somebody loose, there is a possibility of reconcilement. A chance of a gap being bridged. Sometimes we really don't want to loose a friend but we hold onto problems and trouble!
We have to loose ourselves of the things, or people that so easily beset us. Lay aside those weights and run! once you cut them, make a clean swipe and move on.
now onto this blogging from your phone, what's that about? I need to upgrade from this piece of garbage Sprint/Nextel hybrid piece of crap! it doesn't even dream of anything beyond a phonecall!
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