A few things have been on my mind lately. I wanted to share the contents of my weekend as well. Let me see if I can accomplish this without writing a book!
Lets start with the weekend. On Friday, I went to a funeral of a pastor who died. He was a state official, politician and a family friend. I wasn't going to go, but the state choir was called to sing and I felt a responsibility to be there. That and I said I was going to be picking up a friend! I got there and the place is packed out! I was only 5 minutes late and I did not have a seat! I stood for a 2 hour funeral service while singing. It was Hot too! I was not depressed and left the service lifted. I DON'T LIKE FUNERALS! This one was ok.
I came home and was sooo bored and wanted to go somewhere. X and Shawn were on a date, Reggie was working, and I wasn't really interested on looking for anyone else to say they were too busy to chill. So, after I took a nap (my MO, lol) I got up and got sexy! I took a shower, got my cologne out, got out a fresh wife beater and some of my nice jeans and Tims. I was on my way to NYC! I wanted attention, not not too much. I went over to relax and maybe meet someone cool to befriend. That clearly didn't happen. All I met was dudes that wanted to buy me some drinks, which were gratefully accepted, and try to holla at me. While flattered at some of the gentleman callers, I denied them. I felt good. I felt like I was still the shit! It was a ego boost! I get it from Shawn all the time, but sometimes you wanna hear it from someone else! I got home at about 6ish I think!
Saturday, was the second funeral service for the same pastor! Again, the state choir was called. It was very long and emotionally draining. The spirit came in like a flood. The facilitator of the service tried to cap it off. Tried to suppress the spirit of praise! I was like, "clearly someone is out of order!" It happened 3 times and the spirit began to swell to an uncontrollable fit of praise! The whole church of at least 300 people went in! They shouted, danced and praised God like it was their last time! It was truly a Holy Ghost lather! After all of that, I excused myself as the preacher began to preach. It was well time to leave!
Then I went bowling with AIM (Auxiliaries in Ministry). We had fun. There was a member of my church, Dennis, we had real competition! We were going back and forth battling for the lead. He brought the best out of me! I bowled a lucky 178! I was proud of myself! Will it happen again? I don't think so! Afterwards, I went to Praise & Worship rehearsal. I was late because I took a nap and woke up late. Hey, needed some sleep!!! After that, I came home and chilled out.
I woke up at like 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. I sat up in bed and listened to Gospel music and was on myspace. I lost track of time and was about to be late to church on Sunday. Nothing special happened at church. I actually felt a little weird, like I was a bit dehydrated. I drank like a half gallon of water and began to feel better. Shawn wraps Sunday up pretty well on his dreamsinafitted blog.
Now, here is what is on my mind. Why will people not socialize and show themselves friendly? I am one to make conversation. I can walk up to people and introduce myself and get to know someone. This past Sunday I demonstrated that. I walked up to a random guy and said hello. We had a conversation. Why is it that people can't just say hi? A greeting is the same as a whats good on a bgc, a4a, m4n, manhunt or whatever site you are on. Do it in person. People are too impersonal nowadays!
Being spoiled is presenting itself more and more in front of my face. I tend to be agitated when I am around people that floss the fact that they are spoiled. Yes, you got EVERYTHING given to you. Yes, you don't have to worry about many things in life. Why would you throw it in people's faces? I am one that did not have the luxury of someone feeding me a sterling silver spoon filled with caviar as a child! I had to work for what I have. I had to support myself at a young age. I had to do it myself! I had to struggle! Get your spoiled ass out of my face and shut the fuck up! Sorry if that hurts but that's how I feel!
I'm going to try to have as much fun this summer as possible. I am going to be going places. If you want to come, come on! If you don't, deuces! I want to have my fun. I would like someone there to experience that with me, but it is not necessary! I can have fun all by myself!
On a similar note, I have been analyzing who I hang out with. I am placing some people in the social friends group and others in the associate group. All of this by removing people from the friends group that are, honestly speaking, not worthy of the title. I have came to this decision because of decisions that others have made. I will be slowly seceding from these people that have little to build me up with, always tearing someone down, and people that have a negative effect on my personality! That's as plain, cut and dry as I can put it!
School is almost over and I don't have a summer job as of yet. I'm not making a big deal out of it. I can survive on unemployment and just chill back and do nothing! I can do that! Not exactly plan A, B, C, or D but its a plan nonetheless. I am trusting in God and I know he will provide me with a way to stay afloat!
I've typed enough. All else that was on my mind has either left, or will come back in enough time for my next post!
Lets start with the weekend. On Friday, I went to a funeral of a pastor who died. He was a state official, politician and a family friend. I wasn't going to go, but the state choir was called to sing and I felt a responsibility to be there. That and I said I was going to be picking up a friend! I got there and the place is packed out! I was only 5 minutes late and I did not have a seat! I stood for a 2 hour funeral service while singing. It was Hot too! I was not depressed and left the service lifted. I DON'T LIKE FUNERALS! This one was ok.
I came home and was sooo bored and wanted to go somewhere. X and Shawn were on a date, Reggie was working, and I wasn't really interested on looking for anyone else to say they were too busy to chill. So, after I took a nap (my MO, lol) I got up and got sexy! I took a shower, got my cologne out, got out a fresh wife beater and some of my nice jeans and Tims. I was on my way to NYC! I wanted attention, not not too much. I went over to relax and maybe meet someone cool to befriend. That clearly didn't happen. All I met was dudes that wanted to buy me some drinks, which were gratefully accepted, and try to holla at me. While flattered at some of the gentleman callers, I denied them. I felt good. I felt like I was still the shit! It was a ego boost! I get it from Shawn all the time, but sometimes you wanna hear it from someone else! I got home at about 6ish I think!
Saturday, was the second funeral service for the same pastor! Again, the state choir was called. It was very long and emotionally draining. The spirit came in like a flood. The facilitator of the service tried to cap it off. Tried to suppress the spirit of praise! I was like, "clearly someone is out of order!" It happened 3 times and the spirit began to swell to an uncontrollable fit of praise! The whole church of at least 300 people went in! They shouted, danced and praised God like it was their last time! It was truly a Holy Ghost lather! After all of that, I excused myself as the preacher began to preach. It was well time to leave!
Then I went bowling with AIM (Auxiliaries in Ministry). We had fun. There was a member of my church, Dennis, we had real competition! We were going back and forth battling for the lead. He brought the best out of me! I bowled a lucky 178! I was proud of myself! Will it happen again? I don't think so! Afterwards, I went to Praise & Worship rehearsal. I was late because I took a nap and woke up late. Hey, needed some sleep!!! After that, I came home and chilled out.
I woke up at like 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. I sat up in bed and listened to Gospel music and was on myspace. I lost track of time and was about to be late to church on Sunday. Nothing special happened at church. I actually felt a little weird, like I was a bit dehydrated. I drank like a half gallon of water and began to feel better. Shawn wraps Sunday up pretty well on his dreamsinafitted blog.
Now, here is what is on my mind. Why will people not socialize and show themselves friendly? I am one to make conversation. I can walk up to people and introduce myself and get to know someone. This past Sunday I demonstrated that. I walked up to a random guy and said hello. We had a conversation. Why is it that people can't just say hi? A greeting is the same as a whats good on a bgc, a4a, m4n, manhunt or whatever site you are on. Do it in person. People are too impersonal nowadays!
Being spoiled is presenting itself more and more in front of my face. I tend to be agitated when I am around people that floss the fact that they are spoiled. Yes, you got EVERYTHING given to you. Yes, you don't have to worry about many things in life. Why would you throw it in people's faces? I am one that did not have the luxury of someone feeding me a sterling silver spoon filled with caviar as a child! I had to work for what I have. I had to support myself at a young age. I had to do it myself! I had to struggle! Get your spoiled ass out of my face and shut the fuck up! Sorry if that hurts but that's how I feel!
I'm going to try to have as much fun this summer as possible. I am going to be going places. If you want to come, come on! If you don't, deuces! I want to have my fun. I would like someone there to experience that with me, but it is not necessary! I can have fun all by myself!
On a similar note, I have been analyzing who I hang out with. I am placing some people in the social friends group and others in the associate group. All of this by removing people from the friends group that are, honestly speaking, not worthy of the title. I have came to this decision because of decisions that others have made. I will be slowly seceding from these people that have little to build me up with, always tearing someone down, and people that have a negative effect on my personality! That's as plain, cut and dry as I can put it!
School is almost over and I don't have a summer job as of yet. I'm not making a big deal out of it. I can survive on unemployment and just chill back and do nothing! I can do that! Not exactly plan A, B, C, or D but its a plan nonetheless. I am trusting in God and I know he will provide me with a way to stay afloat!
I've typed enough. All else that was on my mind has either left, or will come back in enough time for my next post!
14 thoughts:
2 funerals for one person is out of control... why didnt they just find a bigger place to hold everyone.
Friday was the local service for just the church family. Saturday was the service for the state. The politicians (mayors, govenor, statesmen), celebrities (Timothy Wright), high church officials (bishops, clergy and fellow pastors) came to pay respect.
i love when we go in at funerals..
I staaaay in all the time.... lol
This is not a new experience for me, and I prefer funerls that are like that and not dry and depressing!
I can't do the funerals. Look at you getting sexy for the boys...lol. I don't understand the lack of conversation either. I said I was going to write about it. I'll probably do it next week
I hope you indeed will have fun this summer. I am like you, if no one else wants to go somewhere I'll go by myself. Sometimes its better that way.
I too had to decide sometime ago to seperate true friends from associates. In life you find that there are very few true friends, friends willing to walk this life journey with you, one's to lift you up when you down, and bring you back to earth when you're acting to high and mighty.
Fuzz I totally afree with you re-evaluating your friends. Sunday when i was in my evening service, and after I danced til i was drenched...I got a word from a random dude that said that my friends are about to become scarce. So maybe thats the word for everyone. I too was at a funeral Saturday and it was TOTALLY different from urs...who died in the Grand Ole COGIC?
Yes, you covered a lot of stuff here. I wonder if you have covered the part that you really wanted to talk about.
The job thing, if it's only for the summer, I wouldn't even worry about. One will come and until then just enjoy your free time while you can because working full time when you want to be somewhere else can be a bitch.
Sometimes people are not use to someone being friendly. In Chicago, people are very shady so that is the cultural norm we have to contend with...especially the gay society here. I won't even start off by the white versus black and those with money versus those without money. It's crazy, but what can you do?
CHIVALRY IS DEAD!
Lol...u are such a church boy. I'm still falling out at u putting up ur finger and tip toeing out...and not u stay in all the time. I can't take it. does shawn ever go to church with you? What does he think?
And ur right...this summer is a new season for a lot of folks. Its the season of hello for things that enhance my life and the season of goodbye for things that tear me down.
Sometimes you have to evaluate your so called friends. Just because someone smiles in your face doesn't make them a friend.
ON a lighter note, I mis AIM. OMG, I wish I could have gone. Who knows, maybe another day I'll go back COGIC.
You remember my blog on smiling faces. Enjoy your time not working as much as you can.
2 funerals is a lot
I agree with the two funerals being too much but I'm glad you survived it. The emotional toll would have been too much on me.
But yeah you have to reevaluate who you associate with. Grandpa used to say all the time: You can stay in a bucket with crabs or fly with eagles.
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