Chasing Cars

Not to be greatly graphic, but I just got of bed and left a man in it. Yes it's my bed, in case you're wondering. The man in the bed is cool, not great in the looks department, but has a decent personality. Something was missing...

While watching Grey's Anatomy, "Chasing Cars" comes on during the end of a season at a climatic point. It got me thinking on if I would ever met that one I would want to invite to lay with me and we'd be able to forget the world. The concept and idea of completely ignoring your surroundings, people, sounds, situations, circumstances, problems... EVERYTHING! So as I laid there with this man, who is clearly interested in me, the only thing I could think about was everything.

So I'm out of bed, blogging in necessity because I must unload these emotions. Last week, I missed church because I was lonely. Before you go there, saying I copped out, I was lonely to the point of discomposure. I couldn't fix my face from the tears and sobbing and sorrow; I had to go through this. So I stayed home. I went through being stood up that night, abandoned the next day, and being catfished the following day. The week started off poorly, had a poor hump with me being jealous of a friend's new relationship, and is finishing with a man in my bed that doesn't know I'm not even in it with him.

I just shed a tear. I think I'm feeling pathetic or sorry or something for myself. I have work in 3 hours, and I have a new haircut, and I'm gonna make this Friday work for me. Somehow, this day will be a good day. One day this week has gotta be good!

Just Keep Wondering...