Hey folks, it really has been a min since I've been on, didn't think it was that long but months have indeed passed by. So a quick recap is on the way, I hope I don't bore you!
There was a guy on the radar by the name Henley. We spent 2-3 months trying to get to know each other. I thought he was cool, turns out he's very selfish and self centered. Never committed, and I'm absolutely grateful for that! Dodged a bullet there.
The job has become a thorn in my side, but I can't quit. I'm starting not to really give a shit, and I couldn't care less that I feel that way. For those of you that don't know, I work for chili's as a server and the restaurant has been making changes in order to keep its doors open (personal opinion). They require more from the team members and pay us no more. Then expect us to hit performance numbers when given our best efforts we cannot ever completely control. Writing on the wall is I need a new job. Can't find one with the same flexibility and great pay, so I'm stuck!
Went camping at the woods campground and had a blast and a life defining moment with Henley. Sudden realization, I cannot be friends with my ex's, I tried, I keep trying and it doesn't work. I won't try any longer. Gabe is only around because of the oldest kid Nasir. He's 16 now and is planning on emancipation himself. So that aspect of my life may change. This Negro is talking about coming to live with me! I made him a promise that I would help in the case of emergency, wondering if this is that emergency!
Atlanta black gay pride was awesome! Can't wait, I might go back for Atlanta pride in October. This should be really fun! Meaning that I got into a car accident and I gotta head down there to plead my case! Ugh, my perfect driving record is in jeopardy because someone wants to lie! I don't like bitchass behaviour, no offense meant. Just aggy is all.
Car is showing it's ass, I love it so I'll try to hold onto it for as long as possible. I'm looking for the same model car in a newer year. As I've found my car, the Volkswagen gti. The size, features and power all in one semi affordable package, lol. The aim is a 2012 if I can't get the 2016. Time will tell.
My meds are spinning my emotions way of the grid! Depression, mood swings, nightmares, and my face is starting to break out. Not really happy about that, on several points! I'm wondering if this is what is showing this whole gray hair process along, because I'm not trying to be salt n peppa at 35! Did I mention it's falling out? Yea it's falling out too… not happy at all. I'm going to try to cope tho.
I'm a bit torn in this aspect. I'm going to be getting my ministers license within the next month. I don't consider myself living a double life nor being a hypocrite. People know my level of priority for church and my passion as well. Church people know I am very private with my personal life. I never advise someone to do something against what I would not do or what the church wouldn't smile on. Choices are choices and people make them. I've made the choice to inform the powers that be of my situation and nobody else, so there are no surprises. To the outward eye, people have opinions. With this elevation comes more spotlight. My upcoming choice will now be, to either become more closeted for religious sake or become more open for my sake.
So much has happened and there are times when I just need relief and escape, but instead I go to work and church. Awesome right? All work, prayer and no play makes fuzzy a boring dull and depressed boy!
I went shopping! Many wouldn't believe this is monumental, but indeed I am not a great shopper. I hate lines, I despise rummaging through disorganized racks searching for garbs that fit me well and look well on me. The process is tedious and not liked at all. Unfortunately, winter is around the corner and I can't avoid the fact that I'm single and will no doubtedly be going out and about as a single man. The difference between last year and now is that last year I was moving and didn't really care what was going on because life hit me with a curve ball and I needed to go into survival mode. This year, I'm established and need to look good. Need shoes, shirts, trousers, outerwear and accessories. I need a new wardrobe and I have the closet space to work with!
That's gonna be all for now, tune into next Monday for the continuation
Just Keep Wondering...
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