It's Raining, It's Pouring

I never thought that I might be going through a rainy season like I've once gone through before. I been hit from the left, right, front and back. Something even tried to come at me from the top and the bottom! I'm still here though. I been going through a host of different issues including, but may not be limited to, financial hardship, car problems, I have a bedbug issue in my apartment, there are some issues that I'm dealing with Gabe, issues I am dealing with concerning friends, garnishments, and job stress. In addition, I've adopted this headache that will not go away. It is a reoccurring pain in the left center of my forehead and pains me severely. Time has passed on each of these issues and they have been heavy to hold and continue to move on.

I went to church, my spiritual and mental gas station, and My pastor's brother gave the morning word. It was dealing with blessing God at all times and giving a continuous praise. A line was called and there was a word spoke. I was sent on my way being told to believe. I sat in my seat in a meloncony mood. I just sat. Another guy came up to me and said, you've been doing a great job carrying service in Pastor's absence and because of your will and determination you're gonna need some more strength. He told me to go back for more prayer. I'm against those lines, because i feel you should be able to pray for yourself and get a prayer through. Despite my outlook, I went up and waited for my 2nd round about of prayer. Preacher said, "You've been loyal, and faithful. You've been going through this, this that and the third. You look like you been hit 20 times. You look real bad." I was a lil taken back! Wasn't this man supposed to be praying for me? Preacher leaned in and whispered in my ear, "but you're still standing!" You're stronger than you know. You have incredible faith and to have made it this far, and to still press on smiling is commendable. I'm not gonna pray for deliverance, because you already know God will do that for you. I'm going to pray for an increase in your strength and faith and for a double blessing of joy to get you through those trying times."

I was nothing less than astounded in myself. Here I was secretly down, hiding my inner distress, when all I needed was a breakfast meal of joy. I really can't say how much that encouraged me to keep my head held high. I look for my blessing and an opportunity to give God thanks. I'm saying when it rains, it pours. I can safely say, this isn't a cloudy day, I'm getting a sun shower. I'm just waiting for the rain to go away to enjoy the fullness of light!

I'm going through a residence change, a job change, by faith a car change, and life changes as well. My changes are here! Nobody said the change would be easy. I certainly didn't expect all of my changes to occur at one time either. I yet press on anyway.

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