I don't exactly know what's going on in my mind, but I seem to be a bit scattered. Been this way for a couple of days. I can't really say what exactly is going on but it could be a range of possibilities. Some things have been happening with Gabe, nothing major. Some things have been happening with my body concerning strength, endurance and energy. Some things are happening with work, concerning hours, promotion and job change. I can't put my finger on any one thing, and it may be an accumulation of many different things. I could just be horny and sexually deprived. I haven't busted in a coupla days and I've been yearning intercourse. Gabe doesn't seem to be intuitive to me telling him and showing him I want the dick. Sigh... I'm beginning to wonder if I was ready for the boyfriend thing. I'm down for the ride, but the ride needs some dips, whips, loops and curves. I bore easily and I'm at odd ends trying to understand why this is happening...
I'm at work, the school, and bored here as well. I had my coffee and trying to stay awake. Gonna go to Wendy's with a coworker for lunch to listen to her gossip. That should be fun. Then, gonna come back to work and listen to the kids gossip. That's not fun, cause I know the real story for half their gossip. Ugghhh it's just a dry day for me. There isn't much excitement in my day today. I need a spark of some sort. This blah feeling has to go!
I haven't chilled wit my "friends" in quite some time, and I haven't been invited over to their gatherings either. Kinda feel like I'm not wanted with them any longer. I think I've become the new Shawn of the group. When Shawn started dating Parts, he wasn't all the craze with the group. He started to get fewer invites and I'm noticing the same with me. Oh well... life goes on!
"I don't wanna be a freak but I can't help myself..." Freak I would define myself as. It's no secret that I love and harbor sexual energy. I like to release this energy in various ways. I've been exercising my freak lately and because of increased activity, my standard of an average encounter has been raised. I find it harder to be pleased by my encounters. I'm finding it harder to be turned on by the people I'm encountering. I wonder is it age related. Hmmmm...
Speaking of age, I've never related anything to my age in my 25 years of living, until now. I'm noticing body aches, memory issues, and decreased body performance. I hate to think that I'm getting old, because I've always said that old is what I'll never be. I'll have the age without being old. I promised myself I'd be youthful for the remainder of my years. It's becoming increasingly more difficult to stick to this mindset as the years tack on. My thing is, I'M ONLY 25!!! What is going to happen at 30? I'm gonna turn this thing around and hop on top of my life.
Goodness, I'm in bad shape all around, lol! I need improvement in many areas! This has been a ramble by Fuzzy...
Keep On Wondering...
3 thoughts:
25 is NOT old. That's all Imma say.
You have a very active mind.
I wouldn't put much thought into your friends not inviting you to their gatherings. Well all know in the begininning of relationships, it's all about that person. You'll come around and so will they.
I'm gonna agree with Ladynay and let you know that 25 is NOT old in the least bit!
good luck buddy
Fuzzy it appears that you are just going throuh a rough patch, no worries this too shall pass. How could you even entertain the thought that you are experiencing some of these things due to getting older? Chile pleeze, twenty five years old is oh so young. Relax.
It seems that you miss being an active part of your clique, hey man if they are true friends they will always be your friends and in due time they will be friends with Gabe also, so go with the flow and stop weighing down on yourself.
Career, job changes, higher education and relationships take planning and hard work must be applied.
Fuzzy you are not dense or losing it simply because of a few minor flaws, it is only natural to find something to blame our errors, such as getting older,temporary memory loss etc. You have a great mind so respect it and you're young.
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