From Me to You

Mommy,

You seem so far away and feel distant at times also. I wish you were closer to me so that I could feel you, touch you, talk to you. But, you're not here so I guess I have to move on. I can't get you out of my head, am I suppose to? I think about you all the time and it seems that it occurs more and more often as time goes by. What I'd give to gave a 10 sec conversation with you, even just to see your face would give me a world of joy. But that can't happen.

I've longed to dream about you and to have an imaginary encounter with your spirit. No such luck, as usual, me unlucky! I remember conversations we used to have and I cry from the beginning of the thought to the end of the thought. I cry right now at work because I just listened to a song by Luther Vandross, Dance with my Father Again. Just to sing with you would make my day, week, year, the rest of my life so grand. I miss you so...

I try to go on but it is hard. Everything I see reminds me of you, I walked into church yesterday and I see a woman sitting in your seat. She was your height, shape, skin tone, and wore a hairstyle that looked just like yours. She was almost a carbon copy of you! I gasped on the side of the church and fell against the wall in a slight almost un-noticable manner. I drew a little attention to myself but kept on going to prevent more attention. Everywhere I go I see you, I feel you, and I sense your presence! So are really so far away from me? I'm going to try harder to sense you instead of trying to hide the miss and the pain. I have to get back to work now, I hope to feel you later.

P.S. I feel that prayer that you always said over my life, "Lord please give God favor wherever he goes" I feel that every day that goes by. THANK YOU

-Danny Boy