2 Years Later...

 I can't believe that it's been 2 WHOLE years since I've thought to visit the place that gave me a freedom I needed. I suppose a catch-up is in order and what a perfect time than 2 years exactly from my last post. Let me tell you, it's gonna be a good one!

Last I wrote, I was in this place with a man named Robert. To be more specific, there was an entanglement between two men who lived on two different coasts of this grand ol United States. What made it complicated was how the ordeal started, who the entanglement involved, the disillusion had by some, and failed communications by all. Not to be messy, because I've grown up a lil, but I just want to move past it and wish that other involved parties would heal and reconcile. To give a non-descript summary, I met a guy who I wanted to date and our timing wasn't right. Years went by and then distance became an issue, but the timing seemed to be better that it was, or quite possibly could ever be. The horrible part is there was another involved guy who made me jealous enough to deeply pursue Robert. He was caught in the middle and well there were hurt feelings. We are still together until this day. While I would change some things I did to get here, I would leave it just the way it was if it meant I wouldn't be where I am today. While I believe he'll never read this, if he does... LOVE YA 😚

I'm still at Chili's. I hate being here, but I feel as though after putting 10 years into a company I may as well stay. That's if my job wasn't a pain in my back, LITERALLY! That leads me to some more grown up things. I'm looking for a new job that is less physical and will give me the same luxiourous cash as I currently get or more. Unfortunately, at my age my options are limited due to my education and experience. I've dug my own hole. Good thing for me, it's not a deep one! Uber Eats has become a great side job before the pandemic and has proven to be a great 1st job so far as finances go. If you put in the time, you will make the money. It's easy to give time to drive around delivering peoples food. I get to catch up on podcasts, listen to music, and have some alone time if I want/need. The fabulous part is I'm great at it and I'm a diamond level driver. I guess I forgot to mention that I get to go to school for free! and not just for a associates level degree, I'll be getting a undergrad degree in nutrition. Something I've been wanting to do for the last 12 years and Ive tried twice to do so and well I haven't succeeded. This time, I will strategically plan this out and I will finish. This is the chance I need to change my story into something I will be proud of. Something I can say I did. Something I can say I finished. It's my chance to give myself a good set up and I believe I have enough of life's wisdom so I can make better choices concerning my future! So, I'm going for it and well, another chapter is about to begin! Not yet though, I'm still typing!

I am good for having a car with some issues. Name an issue, I'm sure I've had it. I paid off another car in 2020 and I was SOOOOO proud of myself. I had some pretty pricy repairs done on this car and it was grim at one point if I was going to recover from the repair bill, let alone pay it off. It got done though, and I had the title to a car I had no clue I was going to be trading in just a handful of months. Yeah, I said it. I had another major issue and that was the straw that made the camel slip, lol! It didn't take me long to get into a new car as I was saving up for a new one anyway. I wasn't able to get the car I wanted, but I got a car that made me happy and well... its another Volkswagen. I can't get enough of the GTI. It was the first car I ever wanted. I had one in Midnight Club. My friend had one in high school and I wanted one then. When I finally experienced the fun that was VW GTI, I don't think I could ever not own one. I'm hooked and GTI is my crack. I can't get enough. It's what I wanted and its what I got. The 2017 autobahn GTI in dark grey. I've officially named it Shadow, after the hedgehog from Sonic. We will be on many adventures together, as I made sure to double up on my warranty! This one wont be catching me off guard, nope! #wisdom

I made a decision in 2020 that I was going to be a better adult and start to care more about my yheallth and finances. I've paid off some bills, collections and a car off. I've started the process of getting my teeth fixed and just began round two of that yesterday. My back has been greatly bothering me and I found out about some herniations I have in my back, so I started dealing with that. Covid has hindered me from getting treatments, but I'm going to reduce my own excuses for 2021. My feet also suck and I'm in process of fixing that problem as well. My wellness, mind, body and soul is what I'm focused on this year. I want to be happy all around and well, treat it like a spoiler if you want, but there's gonna be some moves made this year that make good for a happy Fuzzy. No tea concerning that today, I guess you'll need to come back to find out 😉. What I can say is, I plan on doing some traveling and quarantining when it's safer to do so. Who's to say what else is in store?

Speaking of happiness, HoDown's are on an indefinate pause. It's too risky. So much out there and sickness running about, it's better that I don't. The indefinate part comes from the happiness I have attained from not dealing with the horned up men who have no regard for effort given, sho no respect and have the audacity to look at me funny when someone doesn't want them. Anyway, that's a WHOLE other topic. The immediate benefit that I have seen is that I've been able to see my apartment and finally start to feel like its my home. I'm not sure if you might understand, but everyone has items they hold dear to them. Everyone has a life and possessions, be it small or large. I am no exception. Its rough to live some where and throw a party where lurky fingers and prying nosy eyes are scouring your home looking for opportunity on a weekly basis. Hell, sometimes multiple times per week! Putting your life away day after day, securing belongings anywhere you can to keep them is exhausting and started to wear on me. After letting my life out oof the closet, I'm relieved I don't need to put it back! It's an awesome feeling and I am not in any rush to revisit that past. Covid-19 may have indeed killed The HoDown. Fear not, Fuzzy is still around and my imaginary thoughts, ponderances and stories will live on! If anything, it'll be back later on bigger and better than ever, just not in my living space! 

I think I will end this post with this thought. I'm playing house and building a future with someone who wants a future with me. Where will this go? What does this mean for Fuzzy? Why must Fuzzy keep us in suspense? So many questions and so very lil time. Until the next time!

Just Keep Wondering...