Rob Called Me...

... to say good night

I definitely got no sleep last night. All I could think about was how I could let myself become so involved with someone who is thousands of miles away. How Could I let myself get mixed up into this messy shit and feel this magnitude about it! Its a super "SMH" moment and 'm definitely not proud about it.

I took a shift on my day off to occupy some of my time that was just empty space wondering the most and thinking the worst. Before I went in, I tried to sort out some delivery foolishness with DHL and USPS. I ordered a contactless card reader, I think that's what it's called, and Square Inc sent it via DHL to USPS. I was sent to be delivered this past Tuesday and records show that it was actually delivered. Problem is, I DON'T HAVE MY PACKAGE! After calling number after number with DHL, I was finally referred to USPS to follow up with them. I sat on hold and was transferred to several departments and finally reached an automated recording telling me that I needed to file some sorta form online or at a local Post Office branch to go forward and expect to wait the minimum of 3 business days. That did not fly well with me at all. Then I tried to call Square back on my way to work and they wanted some stupid number that  didn't have time to pull over and record and enter into their automated system. So I was super pissed that you need some stupid number to get past some automated tele prompt recording to speak to a live representative.

So I clock into work and the BS happened immediately. There was a call out and they greeted me at the door with "do you wanna work tonight?" That's gonna be a super hard no! One of the servers is sick and can't come in. Said she was vomiting all over the place. Funny when my black ass was here this past Tuesday vomiting nobody gave two left shits about my health! You all can kick rocks in toe socks for all I care! In the next breath and sentence, "I hope she feels better though!"

After work I further occupy my time by trying to fix a botched up order from Office Depot. That's was worked out and now I'm on my way home. Then a couple I was getting to know from before sends me a message saying we're back in town, come meet us. I said Sure! Rob is doing whatever he's doing, I guess I may as well join the party. So I went. It was 5:30pm and I have returned back at home at 11:30pm. I enjoyed myself, tasted some great nut and will definitely head back, as they live only 3 blocks away!

I'm sure you're wondering why I'm so beat over Rob if I'm out frolicking with a married couple. I'm in the place where Rob has at least one of my heart strings and while I'm releasing tension and stress I'm thinking about Rob. I'm thinking about how can I expect sexual morals from him when I'm out here being reckless. I honestly don't know the answer. What I do know is that even after the awesome night I had, and the drinks that I drink and they even made me awesome dinner, all I could think about was Rob.

Thinking maybe I'll call him tonight...

Just Keep Wondering...