Mr. Richardson

Thursday, March 13th, I met Sheed. He came to my sex party down in Philly and we shared 3 hours of intimate non intercourse. More importantly I was intrigued because of it and I wanted a round two! I stepped out on a limb and took his info and saved my personal info in his cell phone. I hit him the next day and we started to get to know each other. We've come to discover common grounds, identified areas that could become problematic, and shared interesting facts and quirks. Getting to know someone isn't that hard, it's the finding someone who also wants to get to know you in return that most people stumble over.

A few red flags have come up in the last 2 month's and none of which haven't been ironed out. He tells me that he's focused on his business and doesn't have time to add a distraction to the mix. I agreed in the fact new relationships are a huge distraction from priorities, especially in the beginning. I'm not exactly in the best place for a new relationship myself. I'm in an unstable job, looking for a new job, living situation is shaky, and I'm financially stressed. Not a great foot to start things off with. When arrangements were being discussed, I said teamwork makes the dream work. We both have dreams, goals, aspirations and plans we'd like to see come to fruition. The response I got from him, "why are you being so nice to me?" I could only say, "because you're a nice guy!"

I get the feeling that his last lover left him or treated him poorly. When we talk, I get a very independent team of one and only one vibe. I've been there when I was doing everything in the relationship. It tears something from you. It leaves this field of emptiness with clouds of negativity raining on ones faith, hope and optimism. I must admit I'm there right now. I'm super guarded and placed a high plateau for my next possible lover to climb up to. I'm quick to dismiss men with attitude, side agendas and stuck-in-my-spot type mentalities. I don't want to waste more time and energy getting to know someone who obviously isn't traveling down the same street I'm on. I'm turning gray, growing older and need to settle into life before life settles me in! Lol

Sheed, I feel, is a good man and the cliche goes, "good men are hard to find". So when ones finds a good man, one should hold on to a good man. He said he needs a friend right and I said I'll be just that. In my head I've found a cool friend at the least or something more intimate and long-lasting at the most.  Win win for me!