Unfortunate

Man, I just can't seem to get enough. Its one thing after another. Before I dive into dramas latest happenings, let me start off by saying I was supposed to have a great Thanksgiving approaching a super Christmas! Gobble gobble bah humbug! And a happy fucking New Year too!

No family this year for Thanksgiving. Different, but I'm rolling with the punches. This year is gonna be with friends and Gabe! Not so bad right? I seemed to have forgotten that my friends are shitty! They all have their plans and motives for pissing me the hell off. Not forgetting Gabe, he k owe how to push mu buttons in a while other way. From the Monday before Thanksgiving, my buttons began to be pushed. Pushed and pushed and pushed... and I'm worn out. Pushed one too many times. I arrived at the introvert hotel yesterday and I think I'm gonna stay there for a bit. Everybody is out to get me and I can't afford to have a crappy Christmas or any variety of a horrible new year. I am canceling my Christmas party because I don't want to be disappointed in the turnout, the spirit, the mood, or anything of the sort. I'm buying my own Christmas presents so I am guaranteed to get everything I want and nothing I don't. If I'm alone for Christmas, fuck it I will just be alone. I'd rather be alone than in a room of killjoys!

"Where is all of this coming from?" you may be asking. "This doesn't sound like fuzzy at all, what happened?" may be another question. Well for Thanksgiving I was expecting to see the landlord, Gabe's wife, a friend of mine, actually 2 friends of mine and Gabe. The friends didn't show and neither did Pam. Gabe's nephew was a last min addition to the mix. Gabe had to work and as soon as he gathered himself and walked the dog hehad less than 15 mins to eat and bounce. I spent Thanksgiving cooking and with a boy that wanted to play games on the computer. I was basically alone and I didn't like it because it wasn't supposed to be like that. So, I'm taking motions to ensure that. Christmas goes my way. How is it going to go? I'm not sure. Its on Sunday this year so its going to be a bit tricky. I won't have to work but I don't know if I will go to church either. New years I was supposed to be in Miami, but because of me being the nice guy that I am, that may not be a possibility. I'm too giving and that's gonna change too. Its better to give than to receive but I'm not receiving so I'm not giving. And that's about all!

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